Thursday, February 21, 2008

The Secret

Last week, Jeremy and I were both very down and stressed, what with neither business bringing in much money, and Gram dying, and general everything. It was awful.....so, after a general kick to head which we gave each other, and which also came from family and friends (love you guys!), we decided to rewatch the Secret on YouTube. Well, the first 20 minutes at least....that's all they have on there, and you have to get your hands on a copy of the movie to watch the rest.

Anyway, ever since then, life has been so much easier. Not only did we both get a ton of emotional crap out and gone, but we haven't been letting stuff get to us. Today I started out the day feeling just awful. I tried so hard to feel good about myself and my abilities, but it just wasn't happening...so I went to the secret's website to see if I could find some suggestion of a solution. Low and behold, I totally did. (I know, I'm surprised too) I found a game that ends with some inspirational saying, and mine was completely what I needed. To paraphrase:

Let go of negative feelings and allow positive things to flow into your life. Remember the beauty and gifts around you and open up to the highest energy in the universe - love

I read that, and even as part of me was saying "whatever" the other part was starting to remember what I love about my life, my self, my house...and before I knew it, I felt better. And then Jeremy suggested we watch an episode of BattleStar (oh darn....do I HAVE to?) Of course I want to! From there, my day has gone amazingly. I found two more jobs to apply for, that I am totally qualified and perfect for, which makes five applications so far. I'm applying for two a day, even though I'm getting the first one I applied for, and by the time I get the job, Jeremy will have already made us money for the next three months. :) Still, best to keep on plugging, and be prepared for however it works out.

Love to everyone out there! Especially to my family and friends! And yay for seeing friends on Sunday for gaming!!

Friday, February 1, 2008

Hard Times

So I wanted to let everyone know that my Gram is in the hospital, and very very sick. Possibly, and probably terminal. She has a very serious and dangerous infection that is in her bloodstream as is also fighting some type of metastatic cancer in her liver and bones, though none of the doctors will be more specific than that, so we don't know if she has years, months or days.

Jeremy and I are handling it as best as we can, and will be visiting her a lot in the coming days. Please pray for her, if you pray, or send loving thoughts her way. She will appreciate it.